Saturday, August 8, 2009

The Big Question

It seems like everyone is asking lately: "So, are you going to have more babies?" and every time my head spins a little bit. I sure wish I knew the answer to that question. I told Sean the other day that for about the first 4 months after Natalee was born all I could think about was being pregnant again. Now, I think "Thank goodness THAT didn't happen!"
Sometimes I think that it is so much fun being a threesome... we get to focus all our time and energy on Natalee and we have so much fun with her. Other times I think that both Sean and I are who we are because of our siblings and I couldn't imagine her not having that.
Natalee is like a dream baby, she slept through the night around 3 weeks old, she is so stinkin' happy all the time, she loves everyone, and everyone enjoys being around her. I know that the chances of that happening again are slim to none, could we handle a cranky, non-sleeping baby?
So I guess the answer to the big question is: Who knows what the future holds, whatever we decide will be the right thing for our family.
But... if we do have another, there are some things I look forward to doing differently. I will try to enjoy being pregnant, it is such a gift and I really didn't treasure it like I should have. I miss laying on the couch and watching my belly move, feeling her wiggle around all the time.
I will not have my labor induced unless absolutely necessary, I want to see how well I can handle real contractions, not those horrendous pitocin induced monsters. I will take more pictures, I look back and realize that being pregnant is the only that that I have ever really felt good about my body, I think I was pretty cute:-) I will not stress so much about breastfeeding. I tried so hard and it wasn't something I was able to do, but it doesn't make me any less of a mother and I wasted a lot of time crying and feeling sorry for myself about it.
I looked over at Natalee in her high chair today I saw a little girl sitting there, when did that happen? She is growing up so fast and I am loving every new discovery and milestone. She truly is the best thing that could have happened to us.

1 comment:

Brandy said...

I have a lot of wishes about being pregnant too. but i just don't know if I have it in me to do it again. I understand how hard it is to make that kind of decision.