How come no one tells you how lonely it is to have a baby? Maybe they did and I just didn't listen, but I'm here to tell you... it's lonely.
My sister told me that it's hard to have friends that don't have kids once you have them, but she makes it work so I didn't really think much of it. But, now that I'm not working my day is all about being home and spending time with Natalee. I don't have visitors and I really don't have many friends. My sister is probably my best friend, but she is busy with her own two kiddos and its nearly impossible for us to go do anything without kids, since our go-to babysitter is the same person (our other sister). We can't leave poor Maggie with all three kids, she would never agree to babysit again.
I joined a playgroup on Meetup, but when I went to the first meeting no one showed up. I came home and cried because I was so disappointed. Sean tells me that he is my friend, but it's not the same. I want a girlfriend to hang out with, to shop with or go to the movies with. I'm afraid that I'm at a point in my life where I won't get that chance anymore. When I do go back to work, there are generally very few women in the construction field. I thought about joining some sports team through parks and rec, but you have to form and team and then sign up, so that won't work.
Last week I threw a "girls night" party at my house with the women that I do know. I had six people come and I had so much fun. It was really great to just talk and laugh. I hope to do that again soon.
In the mean time, I will just be thankful for all the wonderful blessings in my life.
5 days ago