Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Me, Myself & I

I was reminded this morning that it’s been a loooong time since I’ve blogged. This is true, but to be honest I’m having some difficulty with the process. I feel like I write about a lot of negative things but on the other hand, I feel like if I just write about all the good stuff it comes off as being arrogant or bragging or whatever. My life is relatively balanced in terms of “good things” vs. “hard things” so why is it hard to write about it?

How about I start with a little update? I turned 30 on Friday. I was not thrilled with the milestone, but its here to stay and I’m pretty much the same as I was on Thursday. I was dreading turning 30, but then I looked at how much my life has changed since I turned 20 (which was a birthday I was stoked about). I’ve graduated from college, bought 2 homes, built an amazing football stadium (among other things), met Sean, had the wedding of my dreams, welcomed 2 beautiful girls to the world. There have been hard things too, but fortunately the good ones are the moments that stick out in my mind.

Yesterday was my first day back at work, it was hard to leave Olive but it’s good to be back. I have no aspirations to be a stay at home mom, so I wasn’t really sad to go back but I just wasn’t quite ready. Natalee was so excited to bring her baby sister to daycare with her that it made the transition a little easier. I think the hardest part is going to be getting ready in the mornings (and not being able to wear yoga pants everyday).

Breastfeeding! It’s going so good. I am so glad that I gave it another shot! I had a successful day of pumping at work yesterday and Olive was happy as can be with her bottle at daycare. I don’t know how long my work schedule will let me keep up, but I’m going to try. (For the record, my employer is beyond amazing when it comes to accommodating for breastfeeding mothers.)

And finally… Olive’s eyes. I’ve been doing some research on them, it turns out that there is one doctor in the country that studies her condition and he is in Washington D.C. He said that he would like to see her when she is a year old. We will likely go out there and do that. In the mean time, I’m taking her to Portland on Thursday to see a pediatric ophthalmologist at the Casey Eye Institute at Oregon Health Sciences University. Sometimes we think she can see, and other times we think she can’t. What I DO know is that she is made exactly the way she is supposed to be. If she can’t see or she needs special help, then she will get it and we will learn right along with her. If she can see, then obviously we will be very thankful for that. I think the hardest part is not knowing, and until she can tell us what she sees, we are most likely just going to be guessing. If I know any more after the appointment, I’ll let you know.

I miss all my bloggy friends, I hate that I’m such a bad one. I need to get the whole RSS feed thing figured out so that I can read them from the iPad. I’ll get right on that!



Amie said...

Hello love! Glad to see you back on here. I've missed you. Also, for the record, talking about good stuff is only bragging or arrogance when you're comparing it to other people's good stuff (or lack thereof). Don't worry about it - you are NOT a braggart. xoxo

kimert said...

YAY!! I checked your blog yesterday and earlier this morning "just to see." So glad you posted!
I'm happy things are going well for you. :)

Brandy@YDK said...

hi! google reader is the way to go on the ipad. it automatically brings in the blogs you "follow" and puts them in a great format. you just can comment from reader.

Lyndsay said...

Yay you're back!
I'm glad the transition back to work hasn't been too bad so far. I'm very grateful to be in Canada and have the 12 months off, but it does make it harder in some ways to go back to work. When I dropped Munchie off at day care the first morning she was able to scream (through her sobbing) - "No mommy! No mommy!" It was slightly heartbreaking.

So cute that Natalee is proud to show off Olive!

I really admire your approach with Olive. She is perfect, no matter what happens. I'm glad there is a specialist interested in taking a look, even if he is across the country.


Colleen said...

I'm so glad you blogged today! :)

30 didn't hurt but 30.5 did. I don't know why... that's just when it hit me. I'm not particularly thrilled to be looking at 40 soon... ack! Just typing that gives me spasms. But I like the way you looked back at all the things you've accomplished in the last ten years. I may have to keep that in mind.

I imagine that Olive's eyes are something that you struggle with. I hope that you find both answers and peace.

Melissa said...

It's good to hear from you!

Turning 30 didn't bother me too much, but turning 31 meant I was "in my thirties". That sucked! It helps to know that Wayne is (way) older than I am.

I hope Olive's appointment goes well on Thursday.