Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Eye See You & Other Random Thoughts

Oh my… what day is today? Tuesday? Sounds like a good day to spew out a bunch of random stuff.
First off… Olive’s eyes! We went back up to the big hospital on Friday (note to self: never schedule a 3:30 Friday appointment in the city). The doctors were thrilled with her progress, they said that she is doing and seeing much better than anticipated. I’m not all that surprised as she is really showing us how much she can see lately. In December we will go back and have her eyes dilated again so that they can get an idea of her prescription. The doctor said that was most likely just going to be for their own knowledge and to see how things have progressed since she was last dilated in May. I really couldn’t be any more excited about this news.
Last week Sean got laid off at work. They told him that he didn’t need to worry about being out of work anymore (which is why we finally decided to buy the trailer) so this came completely out of left field. It is only for a month or so, but in the mean time they told him that he could go work on a job in Coquille. His first response was “Where the hell is Coquille?” and after we worked out that it was about 4 hours away in a town with absolutely nothing to offer, we decided that there really was no other choice than to go there to work. So, he packed up the trailer and off he went Sunday night.
Here is the thing: None of this is his fault and I don’t blame him for a second… but I hate that he is gone. I hate that I’m left with 2 kids and 2 dogs and a house to take care of alone. I hate that the thought of getting off work makes me almost panic with anxiety over how I’m going to do it all. I am a crazy mixture of angry and jealous over his situation. Before he left he asked if he could take Shelly (our older dog), I told him there was no way he was taking the one piece of calm that was going to be left in the house. We decided that he would take Holly (the “puppy”) and then he could train her after work… but just before he left I said “Aren’t you taking Holly?” and he replied “No, she is too much work.” I almost lost my mind at that moment. Last night, while expertly juggling all of my “household” duties, he called and told me that he managed to get 60 cable channels to come in… I nearly hung up on him. Like I said: Not his fault, but OHMYGAWD I’m drowning here!! Natalee woke me up THREE TIMES last night to tell me that she was going to go to the bathroom and then Olive got up at 4 this morning. Now, I know that I CAN do it all… but I don’t want to. I didn’t sign up to do this all alone and it sucks. He will be back Thursday night for the weekend… I am counting down the hours.
Is that too much whining? Sorry… I’m in a whiney sort of mood today. In better news: I made this awesome dinner last night (thanks Tracee for the link!). I think my crock pot will be getting a workout this month. Send me your Weight Watchers friendly recipes if you have any (I don’t care if the points are calculated… just nothing that is super bad for you).

5 comments:

Amie said...

Oh my goodness. Lindsey, I can't even imagine how overwhelmed and swamped you are right now. I hope Sean knows that next week he IS taking Holly with him. And maybe all the laundry too.

PS, I'm THRILLED about Olive's progress! xoxo

Lyndsay said...

Yay for Olive - that's awesome news.
And sorry about the domestic situation. You deserve something completely fantastic at the end of this!

kimert said...

YAY for Olive's eye progress!

I am sorry about the other. Hang in there. I know you can do it. I understand the overwhelming feeling though. Will be thinking happy thoughts for you!

Tracee Kelly said...

That's great about Olive's eyes. OMG Let the house be messy - no ones fault but that absolutely SUCKS your husband has to work so far away. I'm glad you liked that taco chicken chili stuff! Thanks for the shout out too :) Things WILL get better.

Chell said...

YEAH for Olive's eye progress! Boo! For the hubs and his job situation.